Bad Dreams

Bad dreams get ahead of me, burn nightmares through the teary eyed into celibacy

Mentality spikes lucid, push friends away fighting strangers being stupid

Pick your poison, pick it often, do what you need to do and do it coughing

Wake up with sweat around brow, made out with an ex made love hitting next

The spells written on the wall, your boss is going to jail spitting across the hall

Sitting with the DA, trying to find your location GPS through a relay

Breathe easy, flow water loads till karma is exposed in these studio bungalows

I thought the sleep would be the easy truth, lay naked left abused shown amused

But the deprivation doesn't swell up, hot water left on an open wound, mild melted servitude

Mind went that away, through the ocean spray to the salty breeze, to the maze found by feet

It was like two strangers meeting for the first time because we needed to burn the bridge

Those memories found ridges laid deep in me punctured by syringes lost hope now on a binge

It doesn't matter how many I toss back because I'm still moving forward

It doesn't matter how I lost you because I'm still inspecting navel oranges

It's all the same, haven't cried in a decade, suddenly a surprise woke myself up to see the sun evenly arise

I forgot how simple it was to find yourself lost, actions I did with people I hardly knew

Soon to be loose on gripes from the truth, get off me the hands barely touched our bodies were like files corrupt

Turned off while I was saving, misbehaved memories never found myself shaven, seen your body lay brazen

Seen you crying after outstretch limbs finding pavement across parking lot recently painted. 

Pain in, stains out, Finally omitting the commitment, the words transmitted were ambiguous, mine were plain

Yours were amphibious, shallow and under a mallet, drowned out by my tears I can only find in nightmares malice.

Kale

I'm a fresh pot of kale
I fail when I'm stale
No what I mean from Oxford to hamper
The moments are motions dopler
Gravy train no brain money is dumb
I got money I am dumb
Scum no son stick a sticker on your Datsun
I'm dat one below surface an excursion
What's the purpose if you hack a nerve kid
Magic potion with a tragic notion
Two sips a week to keep the habit bolstered
I'm nervous
No sleep gate keeper mines on our minds
Sign the time

What happened?

The drive becomes fine because it's the only time to unwind
A passing sedan truth serum sublime trying to feel the sunshine
Through frosted windshields warmth escapes plasma
None were plastered just moments away from answers
I nudge for more so I can explore your conscious.
Because isn't it obvious the breaths between silence
Reverberates until it's obnoxious
The smell of sighs the blank stares stars in your hair line
Remind me of the times before sunrise
The long shifts to make you long her
The reactions are tombs of somber softer skin mirrors a pale pin
The ones you use to hold your hair back
To keep the snacks from going stale
The moment between impacts I'm just trying to relax
But the whip and the horns the dents the tears the torn
Threads being splintered whispers in the dead of winter
My one sister moving out the girls losing out
Communication breakdown night gowns late nights in towns
The anxiety still buries my eyelids flutter no photographs
No shutter open the lens pile up the prints no files to request
Bask in the sunset sense the moonlight get cold fainting
My mind on track.
Obsessed.

Over before your turn

Burn an effigy feel the dentistry of your shallow destinies
Message me no alarm to react just sit back while you take flak
Because my hands sit stacked I pass out I act up we fall down
Now the fog is around right the shadow grows over clothes
Because the only skin you expose is the tip of your nose
It's like you know the mirrors are shattered
I add up the baggage make a claim now I matter
The thick shapes masturbate the thin lines last till it's too late
The shakes are prevalent the mattress feels hollow
My back explodes in the mornings where's lies stay on hold
The transfer of happiness to wasted effort
Make me separate I'm in sections being viewed by wandering blessings
I taste space and it takes awhile for the heat to digest
I'm honest but please rewind this I'm Linus playing piano pompous.

Losing long hairs

I don't really know how to battle
End user agreement tied up in a saddle
I want to let go or find a few moments down below
But the growth feels cold the lips show mold
My timing is rewinding my eyelids a reminder
I sign my name and try to tell if she knows it
I hope work starts sooner and the trucks hit bad weather
The feelings in my skull can't handle wool sweaters
I can't handle a twin mattress don't depend on the basics
Find the thin line between handicap and traditions kept sacred
Hold me but it doesn't compile
I noticed a fake smile eyes closed erasing the present
Aluminum cans traced back to this desert
I must be inert my minds staring at five feet of vert
I'm supposed to feel happy
I already feel confident
She doesn't want it and all my nonsense
The distractions are apparent the stairs stare relinquished
My fate makes a turn as I think it will end complacent
I hope I end naked wrapped in one another's arms
The words thrown smooth turned to whispers over spoons
Facial expressions left me helpless it's all stupid
It's relentless. The pursuit was the high
The stagnation my replies and the theory on relativity
It takes time I guess I'm only mine.

Love is just okay

You really think it's easy to let life go
A bag of bones pile up in front of your screen door
The years when they explored and you wanted more
And the legs starting filling up the lower two feet of our rooms
Ears always puckered up can hear right through
Can probably understand pain and our thrive for success
Reliant turned to honesty
Mom gave us all one so we had three
But it turned to a mass
It was hard to walk around
I'm to be last
But it was also hard to last in a space
Full of true moments overlapping explosions
They let you in and lay bare
They come for help passed the pass past out
Live longs for decay
A yard full of them soil turned to tombs
A kitchen lay a lineage
A constant from birth
Hope the trees never minded the piss
And I wish the animals knew they had it best
Waste away in misery no
Make a life and take it right
Our mascot is ending soon others will go
Let's look at the good times
Parade of fur and panting and being outside
Grace the occasion with joy
But the ducts full of sea water
The body loses strength
The muscle loss equals my memory plane
The place to dig around and discuss considerations
Relationships always split
It's a hybrid
Pet ownership
Many memories stitched
Sleds and running away
Looking for answers during a rainy day
It's okay
It's life love it's okay

New needs

I'm working on a new breed no needs trimmed clean
Fresh from the stalk I'm honest pour a picture frame it
And tame me stroked hair fell apart and dangled in hands
My man is too few like a train riding past hues of blues
Because the things I knew how I combusted and got flustered
The mustard on my dog slid down
Turn me loose to fill these slots
I'll call into the nonsense and unlock locks
Just the same way I opened you up
Thin shoulders some pressed luck like the leafs in between loose sheets
Kicked off my bed swirled through this world they just don't latch on to right
I don't fit nothing see the seeds to hide and embrace it
Mixed vegetables left out warm on the dinner table
The fables with the precious princesses always seemed unreliable
Who wears white unless under shirts on purpose like a sworn service
Good evil it's a mirrored surface like your glasses left on a surface
When the light shines through and you forgot who missed who
Who found who because you know no clues solid state no names
Just picture frames with strange faces grinning in front of trees
No knees no need for these memories but no way to delete