Bad dreams get ahead
of me, burn nightmares through the teary eyed into celibacy
Mentality spikes
lucid, push friends away fighting strangers being stupid
Pick your poison,
pick it often, do what you need to do and do it coughing
Wake up with sweat
around brow, made out with an ex made love hitting next
The spells written
on the wall, your boss is going to jail spitting across the hall
Sitting with the DA,
trying to find your location GPS through a relay
Breathe easy, flow
water loads till karma is exposed in these studio bungalows
I thought the sleep
would be the easy truth, lay naked left abused shown amused
But the deprivation
doesn't swell up, hot water left on an open wound, mild melted servitude
Mind went that away,
through the ocean spray to the salty breeze, to the maze found by feet
It was like two
strangers meeting for the first time because we needed to burn the bridge
Those memories found
ridges laid deep in me punctured by syringes lost hope now on a binge
It doesn't matter
how many I toss back because I'm still moving forward
It doesn't matter
how I lost you because I'm still inspecting navel oranges
It's all the same,
haven't cried in a decade, suddenly a surprise woke myself up to see the sun
evenly arise
I forgot how simple
it was to find yourself lost, actions I did with people I hardly knew
Soon to be loose on
gripes from the truth, get off me the hands barely touched our bodies were like
files corrupt
Turned off while I
was saving, misbehaved memories never found myself shaven, seen your body lay
brazen
Seen you crying
after outstretch limbs finding pavement across parking lot recently
painted.
Pain in, stains out,
Finally omitting the commitment, the words transmitted were ambiguous, mine
were plain
Yours were
amphibious, shallow and under a mallet, drowned out by my tears I can only find
in nightmares malice.
